Riding the Peacock

Let’s start with this. Swami Rudrananda (1928-1973) or Rudi as he is more often known, was my parents’ teacher. He named me Sarasvati at birth. What did he see in me to name me after the Hindu goddess of Arts and Letters? I have often wondered. It is probable that Rudi saw me as a Starseed, perhaps he saw my history, and future. I wouldn’t put it past him. He saw a lot with his intense, powerful gaze. I consider myself his student, although I was very young when he died. As I recall, he never allowed children into his meditation classes. But the energies steeped into me, regardless, and I believe he left me with timed-teachings to unfold slowly during my life.

I have the gift of story. I came pre-loaded with many of them.

I see them as if they were movies, or real life events. I can tell you how teleportation works, for instance, or affirm that there are exo-cultures out there somewhere that mine lightning for both food and energy. I know that we can change our realities with a thought (or a blink), although I’ll be damned if I can always do it, consciously.

Channeling comes naturally to me, but not channeling of specific entities, this has always confused me. I receive direct telepathic communication — pictures and concepts  — and was eventually required to learn how to translate these concepts “down” into the linear forms of words and stories.

To begin with, I told stories that I remembered from where…? Not sure. But they are real, somewhere and somewhen. These early stories are in an ancient format — designed to be heard, not read. Later, I was required to take the information and use it to construct stories that are well-written, exciting and entertaining. It took me years to find a compatible format. Science fiction/fantasy was the natural choice. But the recent style of sci-fi/fantasy is very strongly programmed and it would be very hard for readers to hear stories that are outside of the programming frequency. (I will explain the concept of jumping story programming in another post, it is far too important to gloss over here. Please hold down the fort on any questions.) Instead, I turned back to the popular science fiction of the 1920’s -1950’s and found a perfect fit. I have a predisposition for this style of writing. Furthermore, I knew some well-known author’s works before I ever read them. I pre-remembered them. Perhaps certain authors are part of my soul’s collective. Maybe some of these people were my own past lives. Or, my Akashic record from the future, loaded with the information I knew I’d need in this time zone to do certain things. (Possibly, all of these.) 

Regardless, writing is my joy. And though I have published several books (and many many articles), I knew that I was hiding. I simply couldn’t find the courage to share everything that I knew.

Here things get New-Agey…beware! We are in an ascending cycle. We are cleaning house spiritually to prepare ourselves for ever increasing energetics, enhancements to our DNA, and lighter, finer worlds. But we have been down-trodden, mentally-conditioned, and threatened on all levels from the moment of our births (and possibly for many birth cycles.) Humans (the true humans, not other beings posing as humans) have infinite potential for love and creation. We need a sense of wonder to dream reality into being. But we’ve been crushed into the mud, and are confused, unhappy, even suicidal. I’ll be talking a lot about this, but I need to leave you with a first marker today, as I don’t want this post to be a disappointment. As I have discovered, we all have some kind of key inside of us, something that brings joy beyond all other things. This is the special thing that we have determined is our point of contact with the growing Starseed and ascending community. It is nothing to do with telling other people what to do, or what process will change their lives for the better. We are all unique, and have individual life plans. Certainly, we can be helped through the experiences of others, but it is the nature of the lower vibrations to put forth one path for all to follow. We are growing into multi-dimensional beings and can no longer expect one path to fit all. If you are like me, you think that others’ experiences will in some way resolve your own. Maybe. Probably though, there’s something in those those how-to's that leaves you unsatisfied. That is because the fit is not perfect. We all need to make our own ways forward from here.  

I will leave you with a quote from Rudi that I find appropriate, inspiring, and also a slap on the wrist. It is with a great sense of honor that I launch this blog. I hope it serves to inspire and balance some of the wildly shifting and confusing energetics that we are facing at this time. Namaste.

"If you have ever had the experience of watching your mother or grandmother baking, they often express their love by making a special little cake with the dough that is left over. When we work for God, He always leaves a little piece of creative energy for us and puts in something sweet as a reward for our effort. It is only our stupidity that allows us to focus on this small sweet and not see the larger effort. The cake is to serve humanity, while the small goodie is to placate us. Only a simple human being can serve God by slicing the cake consciously, and not becoming involved with his own little pastry. It is very easy to think that life should be a series of little goodies and to lose our focus on the major work, which is producing a larger creative cake to feed the people for whom we are responsible. There should never be attachment to the reward, but only to the initial work that produced it. If we do not understand that, we will get involved in making little goodies and not producing a larger creative cake, which is what it means to serve God." — Rudi